still looking for jobs but i may have another option which COULD help me get employed..

i had a virtual meeting with my job coach's supervisor and my job coach came to my place, so we all sat in the meeting. i'm thinking that her supervisor probably senses my frustration with not being employed yet because he brought up how at the next time i have an interview, to ask the employer i'm interviewing for a job with if i can show them how i can work the job- like a test period of working because the company my job coach works for- will pay for that. knowing my luck, i probably won't find another job who actually wants to interview me to ask them if i can just do a temp./test try-out of the job.
after i had the meeting with my job coach and her supervisor, my psychologist came and spoke with me about how things are going for me. i was telling her how i like working because it takes my mind off shit and has me think other thoughts besides negative thoughts. i'm not the kind of person to bring my frustrations to jobs, so it takes my mind off of things that bother or upset me. when i'm working, i concentrate on whatever i'm working on- i mentally block EVERYTHING else out. that's probably why i feel like i've been in a better mood lately- i work on different things NOT INCLUDING THE SAME DAMN EASY UNHELPFUL MACHINE THAT MY LIVING ROOM WALL COULD OPERATE LIKE AT THE COURAGE-LESS CENTER. YOU GO ON THOSE FUCKING MACHINES EVERY DAY IF YOU WANNA SEE SOMEONE GO ON THEM SO DAMN BAD. i hope this new idea that the job coach's supervisor ACTUALLY helps me get a job now.. UNLIKE the "customized employment" idea. i don't know what happened to that idea. i actually really was excited to get working an ACTUAL job- customized or not. i'm sure it didn't help that my job coach wasn't a fan of the idea. it was her supervisor who brought it up. just like this test job idea.. it better ACTUALLY go somewhere or i'm gonna express my frustration to my case manager and request a new employment company.
not working and not keeping me doing something TRULY constructive just depresses the fuck outta me and when i'm depressed.. i act weird. so i'm trying to avoid that. WE ALL AREN'T PRIVLEGED ENOUGH TO JUST JUMP FROM JOB TO JOB. THERE ALWAYS SEEMS TO BE SOMETHING OR SOMEONE KEEPING ME FROM GETTING EMPLOYED AGAIN. it pisses me off but not enough to be a nosey ass bum who talks to their dogs. (probably because i don't even have a dog anymore but also because I MIND MY FUCKING BUSINESS). my psychologist tried giving me an idea of what to do when i'm bored and look at different podcasts, since i told her i read when i'm bored and she recognized how mel robbins has podcasts- since i have a few of her books.